Saturday, 30 May 2020
I Did it My Way ( but shouldn't have)
There are good days and then there are days that I could just curl up in a foetal position and howl like a coyote.
Today started off alright - in fact I was in quite a jovial mood - but at about 9.15 am my work-buddy, Spike, came running over because I had gone all white and was trembling so much my secateurs rattled in my leather-pouch. I felt nauseous, went hot and cold and clutched my chest.
I was in shock but do recall muttering over and over, "Look....look what I've done, Spike. Oh, look...look at that. No don't! Spike, grab your loppers and stab me to death right now. Please do it quick!"
Spike saw the problem immediately. Well, actually the problem was that he couldn't see what he was meant to see - the perfectly good kiwifruit plant with two new leaders all tied down to the top wires was no longer there.
It had been reduced to a near-stump. Yes, my chainsaw had miscalculated!
What you have to realise is that the fatal cut inflicted was only about 20 centimeters below where it should have been so please don't think I make a habit of randomly swinging my chainsaw around to see how much mayhem I can create. On the contrary, I am usually careful and can only put this disaster down to a moment of insanity.
It is a sobering thing that permanent is so permanent. Some actions - like a chainsaw cut - are irrevocable. You cannot un-saw what is sawed, just like you cannot revert an omelette back into its original eggs.
A surgeon, if he or she amputates the wrong leg, cannot just super-glue it back on the patient. The patient henceforth will be leg-less. That is a serious consequence indeed and that is why every care is taken to ensure such a terrible mistake does not happen.
The medical team in hospital ask you over and over which leg you are getting chopped off today. You sign papers. A red cross is painted on the doomed leg, and even so, it is checked and checked again.
How I wish I had checked over and over before slaughtering an innocent kiwifruit plant that had years of potential in it.
I never thought of myself as a chainsaw-killer. It sounds so harsh somehow but, Bernadette, tell it like it is. That is a precisely what you are.
After the initial shock, Spike was very merciful and said reassuring things like, "Oh, well, we all make mistakes but, yeah, this one is particularly bad", and, " It couldn't have happened to a nicer plant".
Spike said not to lose sleep over it but I wondered how to tell the boss. Would he even notice a gap in the canopy? Would the Pope notice if someone fired a cannon through the Sistine Chapel ceiling? Would the Queen miss one of her corgis if it were abducted? Of course!
After a good strong coffee and a Tim-Tam I regained some of my equilibrium in that I felt silly and guilty in equal measure but the trauma was lessening and common sense told me we all stuff up sometimes and that I am a human-being, prone to mistakes now and then.
For instance, we didn't go on and on and on and on and on about when Spike was parking the buggy in the shed and stepped on the accelerator instead of the brake. The resulting damage to the back wall was considerable but, after we all fell about laughing, we consoled Spike. We were there for him and fortunately, so was the company's insurance to pay up.
And Nodge, look at how many wooden posts he has demolished with his tractor.
These things happen so tomorrow I will tell the boss about what my chainsaw did. The result of that awkward conversation will be the topic of my next blog.
In the meantime, I leave you with Frank Disastra,
"Regrets, I've had a few,
But then again, I hate to mention,
I did what I shouldn't have done,
And sawed it through without exemption,
I didn't plan this uncharted course,
That careless chop along the by-way
And more, much more than this, I did it my way.
Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew it,
When I sawed too low and really blew it,
But through it all, when there was doubt.
I didn't think, just cut it out,
I'll face it all, one day walk tall but...
...woe is me, I did it my way"
So, it is over and out from me! And over and out from the kiwifruit plant!